Thursday, June 6, 2013

"Congratulations"? WHY?!?

Most people that know me know that I'm once again on the road of alcoholic recovery. As of this writing, (okay typing) I hit the ten month mark yesterday. I've been posting it on my Facebook page pretty much on the 5th of every month since I've started doing this, mostly to keep track of it, and my plan, as long as I decide to stay sober, is to make two more posts, and that's it the for the rest of the year. For the most part, my reasons for posting it are mostly just to keep track of it and to serve as a reminder of where I'm at and how far I've come since this whole mess came to a head last summer, but that's a whole other story and I have other blogs about all that stuff, which leads me to the point and title of this one...
Here's the thing about my monthly anniversary posts. While I don't mind feedback or words of encouragement or whatever the case may be, the one word that irritates the piss outta me and I really wish I didn't wait this long to address this, is the word, "Congratulations"! Seriously?!?
I've never understood that one. I almost immediately delete anyone's comment, I don't give a shit who it's from, that posts that as a comment. I mean why? I was a belligerent drunken fucking lunatic and I literally came a day short of killing myself with liquor! Okay, lets say 10 months ago I slit my wrists, and I posted on my Facebook page that it's been 10 months since I refrained from attempting to slit my wrists, would you congratulate me for that too? Seems a little twisted right? Or what if I was a abusive spouse and I hadn't beaten my wife in ten months and posted that, would that earn me some congrats as well? How about if I was a pedophile or an axe murderer or a frat boy date rapist, or the president of fucking North Korea?!? 
It really makes absolutely no sense to congratulate an alcoholic for not drinking, and you're certainly not gonna get a "thank you" outta me, especially when you make me uncomfortable and fidgety with an with inappropriate word regardless of your heart being in the right place. 
Thing to remember about those posts, and fortunately, only two more to come and then after that only once year if I even remember (I'm getting old, senility can kick in any day now), is I post them mostly for my own benefit, I'm not looking for any kind of praise whatsoever, and I don't mind feedback, both positive and negative, and if they actually inspire you, that's awesome but lets save the "congrats" where it's appropriate, like graduations, child births, divorces, etc...
Have a great day!

4 comments:

  1. well i am proud of you Julian you have came a long way and I hope all is going well for you :) much love <3

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  2. Congratulations...not for the refraining of drinking, but for realizing what a hirrible act you were committing. And, im not referring to drinking. hell, I like a couple beers now and then. But for realizing you were killing yourself with it. That takes balls man. My dad was/is/will continue to be a raging beligerant child leaving alcoholic. He always blamed others. The bartender, his father, his kids, a disease. It was never his fault and he was never the bad guy. But you realized what I realized when i decided to quit meth(by the way, clean 6 years this july). You decided you had a choice to endorse the evil you did, you were the bad guy in the situation, and that you were the only one who could make you stop. I congratulate you for coming to the hardest realization any addict ever faces...and then accepting it. Most addicts dont. I wish you sucess man, and god bless.- A random reader

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  3. I still say your doing alright either way since you've become a retard. hehe...

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    1. HAHA "special" was even one of the captcha words I had to type in order to post that!!!!

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